Thursday, 22 January 2015

காற்றுள்ள போதே தூற்றிக்கொள் !


மனம் அமைதியாய் இருக்கும் போதே செய்ய நினைப்பது அனைத்தையும் யோசிக்காமல் செய்து விட வேண்டும். அன்றேல், இந்த மனம் எப்போது எங்கே தாவும் என்று சொல்ல முடியாது.

முன்பெல்லாம் என் கோபத்தை ஆத்திரத்தை வார்த்தைகளில் எழுதி திட்டித் தீர்க்கும் நிறைவைப் பெறுவேன். சொல்ல முடியாமல் திணறுவது போல் தோன்றும். அந்தப் போராட்டம் சொல்லபோனால் என் வாழ்க்கையில் இருந்தது என்பதை விட என் மனதில் மட்டுமே இருந்து வந்துள்ளது. அந்த நிலையில் அது ஒரு வடிகாலாக இருந்தது.

இருப்பினும் அது பழக்கம் ஆகிவிட்டது, உணர்வுகளைப் பதிவு செய்வது. எனவே நல்ல உணர்வுகளையும் பதிவு செய்யத் தொடங்கினேன். வடிகால் என்பதற்காக அல்ல. மனம் கொள்ளவில்லை. என் நினைவாற்றல் நினைவகம் போதவில்லை. சேமிக்க ஒரு பெட்டகம் வேண்டியே வார்த்தைகளால் மாலை கோர்த்து சேர்த்து வைக்கிறேன். என் கணவர் பற்றி மட்டுமல்ல, பிள்ளைகள், பெற்றோர், தமக்கை, நண்பர், தோழியர், தெய்வம் அனைவரைப் பற்றியும்.

முதல் ஊடல்! (முதல் காதல் அல்ல)




சின்ன சின்ன ஊடல்
செல்லும் இரண்டொரு மணி
சற்றே பெரிய பிணக்கு 
பற்றும் ஓரிரு நாள்.
எனினும் இன்றோ என்னுள்
சினிமா போன்றே ஓடும்
முன்னாள் சம்பவம் ஒன்று
முதன் முதலில் கொண்ட ஊடல் (உன்னோடு நான்)
அரிது! ஏன் சொல்கிறேன் கேள்.
அறிந்தாய் நீ ஒரு நொடியில்
விரைந்தாய் எனை சரி செய்ய
புரியத் தொடங்கிய காலமது.

Friday, 9 January 2015

எருமை சிறுமை இல்லை!

எருமை போல் இருந்திட
எவரால் முடியும் சொல்லுங்கள்!
எருமை! எருமை! என்று
என்றும் திட்டும் மக்களே!

தொட்டால் குற்றம்
பட்டால் குற்றம்!
சொல்லும் சொல்லோ,
கொல்லும் பலரை!

தெரிந்து தான் நிற்குமோ?
தெரியாமல் நிற்குமோ?
ஆடாமல் அசையாமல்
அதிராது நின்றிடும்

எருமையின் குணம்
எதிர்மறையாய்ப் பெற்றோமே!
எதற்குமே அதிர்வுதான்
என்றானது மனிதமனம்.

பசைபோல் உலகில் ஒட்டி
அசையாதே ஆட்டுவோர்முன்.
ஆட்டுவிப்போன் அவனென்று
ஆறுதல் உனக்கு வேண்டும்.

அறியாத எருமைபோல
அறிந்த நீ இருந்திடேன் !
விலையற்ற பாடம்
விலங்குகலிடமிருந்தும்!


Monday, 5 January 2015

Dwarka Somnath Yatra - My Experience!



Right from stepping out of the house the yatra was full of joy, lessons and realizations.

We travelled absolutely by the mercy of Krishna who operates through His devotees (here Hrydayaram Prabhu). Dissolving identity was the lesson here. Had to travel forgetting absolutely as Meena or Mani.

Somnath Katha made the Darshan meaningful. Registered every bit of information heard from Jagannath Priya Prabhu.

The Triveni Sangam was the most serene Ghat I have ever witnessed and I also witnessed how inspiration of any devotee would be, in the sense, Mani prabhu having watched many Prabhujis have a dip into the ghat got inspired to dip himself and did so and enjoyed it thoroughly too. Waiting all the while on the banks watching the beautiful seagulls and chanting with the matajis the seagulls' behaviour unveiled a lesson to me which I came home and composed it as a poem. One was not enough and I composed another one. Would share the same in this forum, soon.

The Katha of Yadhu dynasty annihilation at Somnath near Balram Gufa (if I am not wrong) has gone as deep into memory as the back waters/river that kept us chilling through out the katha. The group photo was one of its kind.

Stay with all devotees brought us closer and association of matajis reminded us of my childhood friendship and cheer.

The play at beach was one of my best, long hours along the waves picking pebbles with the youngest of the yatries Ishani and Nandhana followed by Dumbsharads with the entire group. The love and affection shared among devotees in their full mirth and cheer was as big as the sea itself. Dumb sharads brought the best out of the devotees, that too Rachit finding outDhan and Rishi finding out Van for Dhanvantri, and Ayush finding out Bharat. It also goes on to prove that elders don't always teach and children don't always learn, it could be vise versa!

Mani prabhu's part in Kabbadi was significant in the mutual association of himself and other prabhujis. 

The travel by bus to Dwaraka visiting Madhav Mandir, Krishna Rukmini Vivah place and Jambhavan Gufa entry and katha, all I have recorded in my notebook so that I can read again and relive the moments as memory could not be relied for long. The drama amidst our shortage of time was really awesome. Each one did their part so well. Mani Prabhu's dialogue triggering ripples of laughter before even I heard it properly was the height. The choice of Jagannath Priya Prabhu of characters deserves a big hats off. Audience were part of drama by enjoying it to full. The thrill in instant dramas are surely as much fun as prepared ones. Got an idea how I can get my kids do. The kids made my brows raise here as well. They stood near the partakers and I kept ushering them to get off stage as they were causing disturbance to the drama. They were lingering around there only and I found them having part as Krishna's friends and at the end as the horses of His chariot. When I told them they did their part well, one of them said, 'yes, see we had a part, thats why we stood there, you thought we were standing there and disturbing the drama.' The kind of justice and light that sparkled in her (Ishani I think) eyes made me feel its not always that we know everything. Awareness of our own ignorance is the top most lesson for melting our false ego. 

Balka Teerth was the most peaceful place of all. Thankfully was neither commercial not crowded. The lesson that one should close their eyes detaching from worldly, social ties to go back to godhead at the time of death was the cherry on the icecream. 

The bus travel with the exchange of eats and experiences of devotees made the journey time worth spent. I had not disclosed the fact that we would part from the group next day and travel quicker around Dwarka to catch our train at 1pm, till the last moment as I didn't want the feeling of 'missing' come among us matajis who by now had developed better friendship and sharing amongst us. 

Yet got to meet the group at Bet Dwarka and had safe journey home with Manikantan Prabhu reminiscing the whole yatra. It was an excellent time spent with the devotees. Prasad was sumptuous. 

Thanks to each member of the yatra. The youth made it great for the elders and thanks to Jagannath Priya prabhu and Sarvabhauma Prabhu.

Hari Bol
Malini Karuna Devi Dasi

Sunday, 4 January 2015

Touched Me, Untouched Creature!

Birds, wonders of His creation
Seagulls are complete perfection!
Sit and swim on water
Yet stay so dry and clear?


Flight from the sea
So smooth and free
Touching water so much
Yet not touch as such
So should all human
Sail the life's ocean
Living amid emotions
Yet free from all commotions
Moment to moment
Life might torment
But to live beyond
Leaving the mental bond
Remain absolutely unaffected
From all that's good or bad
Like the mystic seagull
Living in the sea, water full
Yet unabated forever
Does get wet never!

Shedding Thoughts Like Water

Oh You beauty, Seagull!
You are so wonderful.

You were in sea the past moment
Tell and no one will believe the fact

How do you manage to swim and fly,
All your life in water, staying dry?

Like your water is my thought
Surrounds my life out and out

How you get apart from it,
So I try, with all my might.

The God who made you
Has even made me too.

Now I appeal to That Parent
'Teach me that detachment'